Life in a box... day 5

Before the apocalypse, my life was busy. My routine consisted of getting up, getting my girls ready, fed and out the door. Typically we were late and to get them 3 different schools was a chore, after that going to work.

Meeting, emails, site visits, etc. Then I would pick my kids up from 3 different schools, at 3 different times. On Monday all 3 had VB practice, Tuesday was night school for one kid, then divorce care and single parenting class, then pick up kid from night school. Every other Wednesday was freedom for 1 hour till I had to pick them up again (hour drive one way). Thursday was night school again and other things. Rinse, repeat, recycle!

My days were 5:30 am - 9pm home, midnight working-ish, then bed. I already don’t sleep well because my mind is typically on overdrive and when you combine that with a Traumatic brain injury (studies show people with brain damage don’t sleep well) it becomes an exhausting circle of life.

I would go weeks living out of my laundry basket, clean of course, but always behind.

Now, my routine is much different, my dogs are the ones driving me insane. I do have a dog door but my older one is too “big” to fit. Although I find my lack of a busy schedule maddening to say the least, it’s growing on me. I feel more relaxed and in tune with what’s going on. I feel like I can concentrate and get tasks accomplished. Granted those tasks are far and few between.

Yesterday we took a walk to the park. It was strange because when you step outside it seems like a normal, bright, sunny, and warm day. You would almost think that there is a sense of normalcy going on in the world. That the craziness that is taking over the world as we know it doesn’t really exist.

I don’t personally know what to believe is going on. It’s almost like listening to a story passed around a group of kids that grows in size each time it’s passed down.

Who’s right? Who’s wrong?

I’m not even sure if there is a real answer to those questions.

The longer it takes us all to adjust to the world inside, it will probably take us an adjacent amount of time to adjust again to the outside. Like when you leave a dark building and walk outside and the sun is blinding. I imagine that’s what life will be like.

I stepped out to go to ALDI today and the “social distancing” is weird, you don’t want to get close to people and they don’t want to get close to you. Kinda depressing actually.

Well, anyways, here’s to the future! Cheers everyone...