Life in a box... turning 37

Tomorrow I turn 37 - I’m almost 40! Ugh...

So, If you would have told me just 6 months ago that when I turned 37 I would be jobless, single (for life btw), raising 3 girls on my own, an official member of the ADA club, selling recycled bird feeders at a flea market, quarantined in my own home, the world falling to pieces, all while studying to be a fitness expert then I would have called you crazy.

I mean really?!?!?!

If this ain’t the strangest birthday I’ve ever had (besides my 21st) then I don’t know what to tell you. I’m not a big fan of birthdays because I think they are over rated. I mean, really once your an adult they will never hold a candle to the ones you had as a kid. Nothing beats Chuck e Cheese or a water park birthday. Those were the best days of our young lives! Now it’s achy joints, bills, taxes, and if you’re anything like me you spend the day doing things for your kids.

I don’t like being served, or gifts, It’s just weird. They make me feel uncomfortable and needy. I’d prefer a birthday in solitude, drinking a cold beer and just relaxing. This will be my first year in recent memory I didn’t have a strawberry cake on my birthday though! Bummer....

But, looking back, I’m happy to be single because I am far too good of a guy to just settle. Honestly, dating is a hassle and I try dating at times but don‘t really like it. I never want my kids to see me date anyone, it makes me uncomfortable and makes me feel like i’m choosing someone else over them. It’s lonely but I don’t mind. Plus, I love being a single dad, I enjoy making things, having time to myself. The last few months have helped me in finding and rediscovering myself. I’ve been focusing on ME and that sounds selfish, but if you really know me, you know I am not selfish and I give myself to people and the ones around me consistently.

Overall, I’d say this is one the best birthday’s I’ve ever had. It’s been simple and I’m surrounded completely by those who actually love me for who I am - my family and my kids. No one who’s faking it, or acting like they like me, or wishing me happy birthday because they feel obligated. (I mean my kids probably do! Haha) and that’s all you really need in life sometimes... the simple things.